Dad...

I stumbled over your picture, I stared,
And it was like it shared, my mind flared-
up all of these memories over the few years.
Till you died, I admit dad, I cried.
Young boy, mom said you left, but i denied.
I remember arguing, tellin mom she lied.
to young to really understand, first hand.
Just tryina keep it at pretend.
Until i comprehended you dead.
Thats when my life darkened,
Last image of you is in a coffin,
that night started smokin, chokin off weed,
Siezed my brain, using the lords name in veine,
God that caused so much pain, no love gained,
I became a fiend, snortin some cocaine,
I turned mean, You woulda flipped if youd seen.
I wanted to live for you, by followin my dreams,
Thats what you woulda wanted for me. right?
Never give up, and fight, climb to new hights,
even when things get tough, chin up, no huff n puff.
But I wish yuh time wasnt up, i wish I could grew up,
with a father figure to mentor, people think imma book,
That they can look at me and read the pages,
but i only display a few, kinda like you,
you kept things true, but not everyone knew,
Im so confused, so many construed thoughts,
Its funny what one picture can do,
Funny how many memories one can bring.